It's been almost half a year since my last post.
As anyone can tell from my Instagram, I am far from over my stationery obsession, but I didn't know what to post here. I was flopping back and forth between having too much to say and not having anything interesting to say at all.
And it's not that I didn't have topics to write about. I spent months trying to write a post about my most favorite fountain pen that I am in love with and the new beautiful inks I've picked up from Bung Box and my glorious TOKIO kakuno set and just my thoughts on the Zebra Sarasa Clip 0.5 Black that I have way too many of. But I kept feeling like I needed to write other things first. To set up certain parts as a foundation. To explain this site. To explain myself.
I lost sight of the main question I need to answer: "Is this site for me or for others?" And it's such an easy one to answer; I created Obsessive Stationery Disorder for myself.
I don't know why it took me nearly 6 months to get to that answer.
So what now?
Well, first of all, I need to let go. Let go of the illusion that I can build a perfectly formatted and logical site from scratch that will remain perfect with no tweaks in the future. Analysis paralysis has stopped me for long enough. Time to feel my way through it. I like finding patterns in the chaos, but without chaos, there are no patterns to find. It's time to make some chaos.
The next few months here are going to be random and messy and possibly make no sense whatsoever. But I need that. Especially now. I need to tell myself that not having completely control is perfectly fine.
I know that sounds like it's about something more than stationery.
And it is.
Stationery is my anchor.
Things in my life are much less than perfect and sometimes the panic descends and I'm close to losing it. Stationery happens to be one of my anchors. It brings me back from the panic. It makes me happy. It's the little things in life. For me, one of those little things is stationery.
We all have our coping methods, right?
Posts (i.e. Chaos) to Come.
Hopefully, I'll put up a few posts over the next few weeks. I've got a number of topics I want to write about and I've got some time on my hands. *crosses fingers*